Warning: HUGE VENT coming!
So we've been in Vicenza for 2 days. And I HATE IT HERE! I want to go home! This place sucks.
Getting here wasn't bad at all. Being here blows. Everyone thinks Italy is such a great place to be. Ugh? Have you actually come here? If you haven't, don't come here to live.
~I've looked up tickets to fly home about 20 times in the first 48 hours being here. That is sad. I'm willing to pay 11 THOUSAND dollars to get out of hell. I hate it that much!
Let's see... The great things about being here?
OH! Dan's people he works with put a very wonderful gift basket and set up for us in our hotel room. They are all very sweet people.
~ the px isn't bad. Quite surprising.
~ THERE IS NO FRG!!! THIS IS AMAZING AND MAKES ME HAPPY!
Anything else? Not a chance.
Now... the awful things about being here.
~The fact that I can't understand anyone
~AFN sucks and doesn't even have cartoons for my babies
~This place smells
~It is so damn small here.
~We have no idea where anything is... and the map they have us isn't even accurate.
~We have no way of getting anywhere other then our feet. Which is fine.. if stupid ass people knew how to drive
~I AM SO FUCKING TIRED OF PEOPLE STARING AT ME. I just want to cry.
~I have never felt so out of place in my life.
~I hate Euro's
~I can't even take pictures on post. WTF soldiers are even allowed to take pictures in war zones. But I am not allowed to show my family where we are living.
~All of our household goods are here and who the hell knows when we can go look at houses. Apparently getting info on that is not first on my husbands list. Well, 2 weeks tops I am staying in this hotel. The 14 day mark I am packing up and flying back to the states where we belong.
~Next time I hear, it's all what you make it. I am going to fly off the handle on that person. What the fuck can you 'make' out of nothing? NOTHING!
Since I hate it so much here I am not doing anything. I am not fixing my ID to be able to come freely on and off post. Why would I? There isn't shit on post. I would consider it wonderful if I never had to step foot on this scum place again.
I am NOT going to the newcomers welcome thing. I don't care to know shit about this place. I have no interest. I just want a damn house. So I can sit there and rot for the next 1093 days.. That is the countdown until the end of this tour. UGH!
I've never been this depressed in my entire life. I really think I am on the verge of a mental break down. This is not like me. If you really 'KNOW' me. I will talk to anyone. I adjust well. I LOVE moving. I am usually a bitch, yes. But that is just one of my awesome traits, but not in a bad way. There is no way that I will make 3 years here. I don't want to live here for 3 years.
I haven't had a conversation with an adult (besides my husband), in person for longer then 6 minutes in days and its really getting to me.
Seriously, as a military wife, I've done 2 deployments, one of which my husband was injured. I never ask for anything. I don't complain when my husband isn't home.
Is it really fair that I have to sit here with tears streaming down my face because I have never been so unhappy in my life? I just want to go home. I want to have a normal life again. I am sick of living in a hotel. I need a home for my kids. I want to be able to cook my kids a real meal, not eat out and not eat snacks and sandwiches. Its been weeks.... weeks since we've good a real meal.
I hate this place.